I feel a bit better today. I am already on meds for anxiety and depression so it is just a matter of starting them back up again. I am not about to "LOSE IT" I am just sad and frustraited right now. Definately NOT Clinical!
OK so the morning did not go too well for us. I wake up after hitting the snooze about 3-4 times get my shower, fix my hair (which looks fabulous today I must say...even though it is raining here...pic at bottom), forgot the makeup though (usually do not wear when it rains or is extremely humid), get dressed (even wearing my 3inch heals today), I go to let the dog out (my pug) and he won't GO becasue it is raining and he hates to get wet (WUSSY) well after 20 minutes he finally does what he needs to do, ok off to wake Josh...easier said than done! It takes me 5 minutes to get him awake and then off to feed him before daycare. Now is when the bad stuff REALLY starts. While Josh is eating I hear noises and turns out Josh has BAD diahrrea (sp). Well I hurry to change the diaper and let's just leave it was a complete mess that ended with 2 diaper changes and the change pad cover soaking in the sink...sorry TMI!
OK so off to Daycare we go. We get there and I inform her of his diaper situation. She said well if he does 5 of them for me for health reasons for him you will need to pick him up...not a problem! Have I said how much I LOVE my daycare! Just LOVE HER!
Now I am on my way to work remember I have an offsite meeting from 1-3 today so IF Josh has a problem I need to make arrangements. I just made a few phone calls to cover it...no problems.
So that is my morning! Mind you all this happened from 6:00am-7:15am.
OK so let em back track a little to last night and how Joey and I talked out the problems that got me feeling down about myself. He just has a way of complaining about something and usually I have something to do with the reason he is complaining (ie: complains about how he has to super save now becasue I just HAD to have a different car) so I feel lousy like I am the reason he is upset and I am causing problems. Well Joey doesn't MEAN it that way...it is just him venting about how hard he saves up our savings. Well I told him that when he says those things it really hurts me. He didn't realize and so he just hugged me and appologized for his ignorance. Joey is a wonderful provider for us and I love him to death...even though he literally NEVER HEARS A DAMN THING I SAY! I can answer a question for him and literally 5 seconds later he is asking again! Ok I am going off subject here. So after we hugged and did a little talking Joey realized he needs to watch what he says and how he says it because he really doesn't think before he talks...that is the DAMN TRUTH!
So I talked to my BFF (Jenn) yesterday for about 5 minutes...I think her phone shut off. I miss her (she lives in Baltimore). I did talk to Robbie (mine and Joey's buddy) and we talked about his daughter's first bday party which is next weekend. I asked what I should get her (think I am going to go with a push toy that promotes walking since she is just starting). I always get a laugh when I talkt o Rob. He told me not to pick his daughter up too fast when I see her next week...I asked why and he said becasue you may throw your back out picking her up as she is almost 30lbs compaired to my little guy who I think is about 13-14lbs at almost 6 months old (Dr. appt is 9/21). I just laughed.
Work is very very hectic. Offsite meeting today 1-3 inhouse meeting 9/18 and 9/19. Offsite conference on 9/25, 9/26 and 9/27. I facilitate all the meetings BUT the 9/26 one that one I am just attending. I love my new position...I have been working it unofficially for over a year but finally received a permanent status for it. YEAH I am an Official STATE WORKER! My job is very demanding as I am the assistant to the Deputy Director of Child Mental Health. We are working short handed (our newest employee fell at home and broke her leg) so My co-worker and I are doing a 3 person job with just the 2 of us. Last week I did the 3 person job by myself! I did great. I just never realized how valuable I am to my work until last week. That sounds a little conceited of my but I received over 12 emails stating how they could not have survived the week without me...so I must be doing something right.
So it seems once I vented about my problems on this blog I started feeling better. Guess because I got it out there.
Ok I think I rambled enough for now. I hope Josh can stay the whole day at daycare.
Much Love!
3 comments:
Morning Jana :). I'm just checking in on you, and letting you know I'm out here thinking about you! I'm so glad to read you're feeling a little bit better! I totally hear you on your DH - I love mine SO MUCH, he's my very best friend, but the man just does NOT hear what he says to me sometimes. I hardly do anything for myself anymore but yesterday I bought a gossip mag, and he said "why don't you just subscribe if you are going to spend so much money on these." It was seriously the first one I'd bought in weeks and weeks. Whatever - we know how hard we work nd how careful we are, and that's what really counts. Hug that darling boy for me - I hope I can meet him this Christmas!!!
Jana- your hair DOES look fabulous!! You have a pug? Fawn or black? We have two and our fawn male Norton is a complete whimp too! It took me 4 hours to get him to go to the bathroom outside. stubborn, whimpy dog won't walk in wet grass. glad to hear today is going better! Hugs!
Glad you're feeling better Jana! It's not bragging to be proud of the great job you do for kids! Thank God for people like you! And don't be afraid to smack DH with a rolled up newspaper. Sometimes they need it! It's good for them! :)
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